hey yall whats up?

not too much. i just got home and i just took a shower and im abuot to go back to work. but sprouse had a party last night. awesome. lots of fun. and it got me thinkin abuot stuff. like.....why cant i get a girl to treat me good. or at least decent? i mean wtf? i try to treat them really good and the least they could do is be nice and treat me they they would want to be treated. but ya no what? maybe relationships arent my thing, maybe i need to start haveing just one night stands and then i wont have to worry abuot all this crap. cause im sooo tired of getting cheated on, broken up for no reason, lied to, and im tired of getting treated like shit. i thought that i found someone who would be different bc they had never had a bf before , so i thought, " hey this one is nice and pretty, and she wont treat me like crap bc she aint never had anyone before. she will just be soo happy to finally have a bf that she wont want to make me mad and break up with her. i think that i might have found a good one. "  well, like so many other things in my life, i was wrong. and now im depressed and feelign like shit. and the same thing has been happeing for like 3 years. i thought it would have stopped, but it didnt. stupid me, what was i thinkin?  am i the only one that feels this way? am i asking for too much. i just want to be treated like i actually have feelings, im not asking for all the other special things. cause i do lots of extra stuff. maybe im just too nice. lots of my friends are complete assholes, and treat their gf like crap. but they are the ones that got the pretty ones that will hold on and treat you good forever. maybe i shoudl just start bieng a mean ass and i could get a decent girl. and yea, everone is like no brandon you shoudnt do that, but bieng nice hasmt got me anywhere accept heartbroken. and that pretty much it. well i go to go drink some coffee or somehting. well eya just letting my thoughts out. well yea.

brandon